Dear Baba Jaber,
I can't believe it's been four years since you were gone...
It feels like yesterday...
I remember what I was doing that day when I learned the news...
I was still in bed, sleeping... Or rather sulking in my depression episodes...
I got a text from my best friend...
"Juuussst... Baba Jaber mat!"
That's what she wrote...
I don't remember now If that was the first time I learned about it...
Somehow, it feels like I knew about it already...
But maybe was just in shock or denial...
Anyways, I remember I started crying...
I loved you...
Just like all the childern that were born in your reign,
We called you 'baba Jaber'...
I'm almost 26 & I still call you this way...
And I shall always do...
But you know what? When I was a child, I really thought you were my dad! hee hee
I remember I used to stay up until it was time for the TV channel to shut down & wait for the national anthem to come on... I would point at the your picture on the screen & say: "Baba!"
hee hee
That's because my dad kinda looked a bit like you back in the day...
Of course, I eventually learned that you weren't my father! But to me, & to so many others, you were the father of us all...
You took care of us as if we were your own children...
You taught us so may things.. & your teachings are still present...
My dream was to meet you..
Unfortunately, I wasn't granted that wish...
*cries*
But I hope I can meet you in heaven...
Will you save me a great seat?
I just wanna tell you that as one of your daughters, I shall always remember you...
Your treasured memories will always be a part of me...
I shall live on to learn & teach what have taught me...
& keep teaching me till this day...
You were titled 'Amir Al-Quloob'...
And indeed, you are, father...
You are the Emir of Hearts...
'Cause that's where you reside in all of us...
You live in our hearts...
& in mine you shall always remain...
May You Rest in Peace...
Miss you...
*****
Pray for my Father...
Our father...
We L.O.V.E you...
*****
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