Friday, June 26, 2009

I really don't know what to title this post...

It was so sudden ...
It didn't sink in right away ...
It still feels unreal ...

It's funny! I've always wondered how the world will react when this day comes! We've seen how famous loved ones have affected people all around the world, such as the deaths of JFK, Elvis Presley, & from our world, AbdulHaleem, Om Kalthum, & locally, our loved leaders such Baba Jaber & Baba Sa'ad, God have mercy on their souls ...

But since people my age didn't really experience that extraordinary fascination & sometimes more-like-worship kind of love for a celebrity, I always wondered how will it go ...

But not in a million years have I expected what I'm feeling right now to ever happen to me!

First of all, I'm not a fan of his!!!!!!!!! So, why do I care then, right??

Honestly, sometimes I wonder why I do care??

But over the past few months, & due to a newly grown curiosity towards this person, whom I knew nearly nothing about except that he makes music & is acclaimed to be the most famous person in the world (ok, so what? who cares?) & really couldn't grasp why he was loved that much, but that didn't concern me really, there are so many stars who are loved very much, so it's not really strange .. but what got me interested & curious was that I wanted to set things straight about all the rumors I've heard ... was he really charged of those acts? Did he really do it? What exactly happened. But the most rumor I so wanted to set straight, was whether he really converted to Islam ...

Before I knew it, I was sucked into a world of fascination ...
I never knew his songs that I loved were so personal ... & that he wrote/co-wrote almost all them! To me that's highly appreciated of any performing artist ...
Listening to 'They Don't Care About Us', 'Scream', 'Leave Me Alone' & the like, gave a whole new meaning to the songs ... it's as if I'm listening to them for the first time ... really listening...

But then as I saw a number of interviews, some past interviews that I've seen years ago but didn't really cared to much about, have a new meaning to me ...
& somehow, I started to get to see something inside that face of his ...
& with the time, I didn't even get see his face anymore ... I just look right into his soul.

That's what got me...

His soul...

Ever since, I started praying for that man. To be freed from all that pain...
His life was soo unbearable! Trust me, nobody would wanna trade with him, if they could!
To live a life with constant pressure like this ... since early childhood...
& not only that, to be abused, threatened ...
With all the good in him, he was also contradictory in many ways ...






To Be Continued...




5 comments:

  1. I just stumbled across your post and thought your views were interesting. I have added myself as a follower, hope that's ok.

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  2. Eternally Distracted:

    ur welcome here dear, thnx for stopping by :)


    Woman Apollo:

    I know...

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  3. Dear Just, You have a good writing skills which i envy you for, The story if this guy is a legacy that touched the soul of many generations. imagine living all your life hearing about this cool good famous person of TV, on Radio, on the newspapers, talking about him with friends and family members. and after 20 or 30 years someone tells you this person is no more. Even if you dont know him personally, it will touch your soul for sure.

    Keep on the good work and keep on writing good : )

    Yours.

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  4. Hello M.Bahrani (that's u right?), thank u for ur warm compliments, i really appreciate u taking ur time to visit my humble blog & comment :), but hey, u dont have to envy me or anything! (say ma sha Allah!) u are quite good urself, so do not underestimate ur skills. it just takes a lot of time & hard work & practice to improve one's abilities, so get practicing my friend & you will be even better than me :D

    how often do u write in English? & how long have u been practicing?

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    about the topic, well, yes, u are right. But, i think it's more than just his legacy... his soul is what i mostly cared about. & i agree, we dont necessarily have to meet (or interact) with someone in order for us to like them. I've known him all my life but i never really cared that much about him apart from the few times he was on TV or the times when i listened to the few albums i had of him, but other than that i didnt care, thats why i never considered myself a fan. even now that i care about him, i still dont call myself a fan. what i feel for him is so beyond that. after he passed away i realized just how much i really cared for him. i still find it hard to talk about him nowadays... esp, to ppl who dont know me, cuz mostly they'd get it wrong or think that im a helpless fan or smth like that...

    are u a fan of his? what do u like mostly about him?

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